connections

"Only through our connectedness to others can we really know and enhance the self. And only through working on the self can we begin to enhance our connectedness to others."

-Harriet Goldhor Lerner

Six months of healing.... feeling... discovery.

Continue to learn more about myself, about others.... connections.

interactions... experiences..... change...... learning....

Finally able to look into my own future with my eyes open

Trying to decipher what I would see and what I want to see.

Looking forward while learning from my past.

Seeing people for who they are and not who I want them to be.

Making time for the people who I hold close to my heart and

letting them know how special they are to me.

Connecting with other people who share the passion of giving to others

has had such a ripple effect-- one can only do so much as an individual,

but when you get people who have the same passion and drive together...

then the possibilities are endless....

your eyes just have to be open to people, to listening, to learning.....

In the future I want to be with someone who is able to allow me to grow

and grow with me.... together and apart.

If that is not possible, I will be forever growing, learning, and connecting.

That is my goal.

solo

As we get older, our world gets smaller...

change being the only constant theme as we grow.

New connections are made as old connections fade.

with every new relationship our hearts become more hardened.

But with growth comes clarity,

We know what we want and what we don't want.

Thoughts of the perfect mate becomes smaller, and the need larger.

Our independence is greater but so is the loneliness.

Do we open our hearts in the hopes of something great,

only to find ourselves even more damaged than before.

Or do we close ourselves off to protect that weakened muscle,

to find strength in ourselves.

At the ripe age of 31 i find myself frustrated.

wishing I was more simple,

wanting so badly to be understood.

hoping to find that effortless bond as I continue to change.

Questioning the possibility while doubting the commitment.

Hoping my hardened heart will function the way it used to...

when the time is right.....